Saturday, March 31, 2012

Happy Divorce-aversary to Me!

I'm still alive. Really.

Yesterday was the one-year anniversary of my divorce. They (whoever they are), say that the first year is always the hardest after a major life change. I mostly agree with them. I feel like I've been marking time waiting for this year to end.

I was anticipating the end of the first year with great joy. I'm so happy to be free of my ex-husband. But on the day before the divorce-aversary I ended up feeling really, really sad.

When I got married I expected it to end when one of us died. I wanted to be the little old lady walking hand-in-hand with a little old man and smiling at the antics of our great-grandchildren.

It will never happen.

My life is not what I planned. I know that God isn't surprised, but I sure am.

How did I "celebrate" my divorce-aversary? This year I treated myself to a spa day. I had a facial AND a massage AND a salt scrub seaweed mud bath thingy. I felt totally pampered. It was a good day after all.


  1. I can understand both: the sadness, and the happiness.
    Good for you for giving yourself the gift of a bit of pampering.

  2. I have been there and I totally understand the grieving. It isn't about HIM, it's about the failed marriage and the lost dreams. The happiness is about taking care of yourself and moving on. One year down, now getup and get to living the rest of your life!

    Well done, by the way. ♥
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